Monday, March 12, 2012

Missing Frannie / Missing "Mom"








God gave me a precious gift ten years ago. I can't even begin to write how much love goes into a four legged family member. Why does God give us these emotions? Missing her hurts so much. Yesterday I had to put my little lady, Miss Frannie Klein Frankfurt Edwards, to sleep after being hit in our driveway. Frannie Klein Frankfurt.. Frannie little wiener. I sure loved the long “little hotdog”. She was the prettiest dachshund. She adored her family of both humans and animals that live here.

I feel so lost. Who will bark at the big dogs now? It is going to be too quiet here for a while. She ruled the roost. Our German Shepherds won't have the ankle biter to play "chase the rock with" any more. Our pit bull, Baby, is going to have to find someone else to warm the log cabin dog box that is at my back door. Guess Tiger, will have to fill that empty spot. That one year old cat stuck close to Frannie. They groomed each other. It was instant family for the two of them. Pure love. Unconditional.

Unconditional. God loves each of us that way . I sure hope all Dogs go to Heaven, as the old movie says, so God can continue to love her in such a sweet way. Picturing her running without pain and playing with the other “angel dogs”. The first thing we said to our nine year old boy, DJ , was that Frannie will be taking care of grandma now. I think that may have eased some of the pain for all of us. Well,maybe.

Putting that dog to sleep brought back the memory of taking my mother in law off of dialysis, which was the only thing keeping that suffering woman alive. I realized that being the medical power of attorney is much the same as in this situation. It causes you to make the hardest decisions but praying for and hoping for the the best choice for the patient.(Oh gosh this hurts.)

I loved my sweet mother in law. I miss her so much, I ache with sadness. But I would never change my decision of the step it took to get her to Heaven any faster. No one wants to see family members suffer. And that is exactly what she was doing and would have continued to do. After she died, God spoke to me ,”Thank you for preparing my child for Me.” It was confirmation and the comfort I needed.

I think I need to hear those words again.

“Frannie, take care of Dolores. Run and play... like grandma couldn't do anymore.” I know laughter is loud in Heaven. Joy is ringing out. I wonder what the children---who have made it before us--- I wonder what the laughter sounds like as Frannie sings, “How Much in that Doggie in the Window?”.



                  "Good bye my sweet friend."
"Thank You God for giving us the chance to love and feel loved by this four legged family member. Give her a tummy rub for me. Ok?"


I will miss you girl. You were the best friend of all of us. You were mine.
Good bye my sweet friend.

Psalm 34:15
 The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and His eyes are open to thier cry.

Phillipians 4:6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything , by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known unto God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.



3 comments:

  1. a tear in my eye and a smile on my heart

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  2. Great job mom. You are a wonderful writer!

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  3. Beautiful you made me cry, love u Mary

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