When my daddy first died we were trying to figure out a way to explain where heaven is to Brooklyn. We told her PopPop was way up in the clouds. I will never forget the first clear sky day we had after he died. We were riding in the car to school, she was looking out all the windows then burst into tears. I asked her what was wrong, she told me there were no clouds and she didn't know where her PopPop was. I tried to explain again about heaven.........this morning as we were riding to school she looked very sad. I asked her what was wrong and she said there were no clouds in the sky so PopPop was not so close today. I lost it and tears just came down my face as I tried to explain he is always close. She asked me was I crying because I missed him and I told her yes. She said mommy it's OK I'm crying too. When I looked in the rear view mirror at her I could see the hurt stream down her face in tears. It is hard to watch your baby hurt and know there is nothing to ease that pain. I reminded her how lucky we were to even have a PopPop and that he would always be with us. She asked me how did I know he would always be with us.......and I told her I knew because he promised he would.
Missing my daddy- Cait Crew