Wednesday, July 16, 2014

I Quit Out Loud, I Restart Strong !!!

Isaiah 11:6 NIV
The wolf will live with the lamb,
the leopard will lie down with the goat,
the calf and the lion and the yearling together;
and a little child will lead them.

I sang with my granddaughter as she colored at the dining room table. Crayons scattered and papers decorated even my floor. As she searched for the yellow crayon I began to sing a song that I learned from my 3rd grade teacher. Mrs Price taught us to “Sing, Sing a Song.” I “la la la'd “and grinned as Natalie looked at me with her cute four year old eyes wondering what in the world was I singing. I pulled up the 1970's Carpenters song so she could see it on You Tube. Of course I found one with the song being sung by the Muppets on Sesame Street which made it even more fun for her to see.

“Sing, sing a song. Sing out loud. Sing out strong. Don't worry if it's not good enough for anyone else to hear, just sing sing a song.” It was so much fun to dance back and forth and copy the sounds of the puppet monsters and characters.

Being a grandmother is so sweet. I absolutely love that title. It fits well with my heart. Somehow, today, being a grandmother really paid off. This granny learned something new by having that singing moment with my curly haired Shirley Temple look alike grand youngin'. God has a way of showing us big lessons in the smallest things.

I blog. But lately I have not been writing for my readers. I  DO know why. I have been a reluctant writer because of a very disheartening “run in” with one of my readers.  It's disturbed me greatly. So I quit. Stopping writing isn't the only thing that took place. As an advocate against abuse, I also quit working toward my goal of reaching out to those who need to be educated or encouraged to heal. Another “run in” with another organization brought hesitation to my works. Both of these situations left me feeling incapable and inadequate of doing what I thought God was leading me to do. Both set me back to thinking I did not have the right knowledge to continue with the ministry I had been working toward.

Ok, so what in the world does that have to do with Sesame Street songs? Let's look at those words again, “Don't worry if it's not good enough for anyone else to hear.” But as I sang I heard this...“ Don't worry if they don't think what you are doing is good enough, I ( God) called you to this, Sing out Loud, Sing out Strong !”

I apologize to those who have needed to be encouraged. Please pray as I listen to God to follow His direction and not my own. It is time, again. to sing of good things (not bad ?). Sometimes I am called to sing of Happy ( and sometimes sad ). And if I am writing of either of those, I will praise God for the test, trials, over coming and growth, one step at a time, one day at a time and One Leader at all times. Welcome back to my blog and back to my journey. Thank you for being patient with me during my hestitation and re- evaluting break. Now that I am back please hold onto my hand with prayer. Together we will walk as a little child...leading. While we are at it, we might as well sing !